Saturday, April 2, 2011
I am learning each and every day to think of life as a journey rather than a means to an end.
The last few years have been difficult and I feel like I am ruining the most precious years of my children's lives. Some of the things are out of my control, while others are ones that I just need to make a decision. I contemplate too much. I worry about the pros and cons of each and every decisions that I need to make.
I feel like I am missing what is supposed to be the best years of my life. The happiest moments. The days that are supposed to be filled with laughter, yet are filled with tears.
I am trying to change that. I am trying to change the dynamic of my family. I am trying to be hopeful.
I am....simply.....just trying.
So, my One Little Word project will hopefully keep me on track. It will be a constant reminder of what I set out to do this year, even if I don't "finish" the assignments. Even if my "shoulds" are too big. Even if I do nothing other than try to make things better.
At least I can't say I didn't do anything.